Decade: Monumental.

Today is a monumental day.

10 years ago today at 7pm, I took the deepest breath of my life, looked at my best [and only] friend at the time and said, "Here I go.". She gently pushed me towards that aisle and said, "Go."

I stepped foot into an Old Historic Church in Charlotte, North Carolina. I gazed down that aisle at a very young-handsome-guy, who had no idea what he was about to get into.

Neither of us did.

The words I heard a few days prior in a counselor's office, "You have every odd against you." rung through my ears as I took that first long step towards the alter.

We were both 19. Pregnant. Broke. Fearful.

True -every odd against us.

But the fact is, we still have every odd against us. And it's why today is a monumental day in our lives.

Some days, I feel like we are barely hanging on by a thread to our love for each other. Many days I feel like we will never get to the point I want us to be at. But more days than not, I look at the man sleeping beside me and remind myself that what God ordains;He sustains. And He will see us through to the end.

And for that reason, I am one of the luckiest girls in the world.

Nothing is perfect. NOTHING. I've come to accept that. Not even my own relationship with Christ. So how could I ever expect my marriage to be perfect?

I can't. And I won't.

But when I look at Kris I know that God gave Him to me. Whether or not we entered into this marriage from a beginning of sin, I know that God hand-picked Kris for me.

Because I'm not sure there's another man in this world that would love me, believe in me, put up with me and handle my many decorating projects with such care and ease. [smile]

He is a man of very few words [which is difficult for a woman with many]. But he's a good listener [perhaps not always the best responder but, a good listener]. He's the hardest worker I know [seriously, he is]. He's an awesome daddy. He knows how to make me laugh. He knows how to steal my heart. And He's the man I say, "I love you" to.

So honey, here's to many more decades of life with you. I don't know what the future holds but I know it holds us, together. With you by my side I know I can get through anything and climb over any mountain. You inspire me to be a better person, always.I still get butterflies when I see you. You still make the world go round in my eyes. And that's all that really matters on a monumental day like this.

Happy 10 years Kris Koziarz. We made it. Now, quit taking my pillow so we make it through the next decade. [wink]

I love you.