I'm just gonna lay this out.

I've been up very early this morning and stayed up late last night so I hope this all makes sense this morning.

There is something I just need to lay out.

And since I don't have a TV program, a radio spot or even a website that gets thousands of hits a day, this blog will just have to do! So all ten of you who read it each day =), hear me out.

I've been a little frustrated lately.

Not with my kids, not with my marriage, not with work, not with bible study, not with our church and not with anything else as much as....but with what I know the Lord has called me to do.

It seems as though door after door that I knock upon is all to often a, "no". I have looked at ministry after ministry, I have sent letter after letter, article after article and I have watched friend after friend getting her groove on with what she's supposed to be doing! And while I am happy (truly) for each of them, my heart still aches.

I have learned so much, I have grown so much, I have seen so much and yet.....I feel like I am still standing still.

But then, last night.......I got it. The Lord spoke to me like never before. And I feel so strongly about this that I knew I had to blog about this because maybe........just maybe....there is one other person in this world who feels like I do.

A little frustrated with all the "no's".

Wallflower girls, I'm about to jump way ahead of where you are in our bible study, but hopefully it will excite you to hear what message is coming up in a few weeks.

Righteous Waiting.

Have you ever heard of this before?

It's a powerful thing and it's changed my heart forever!

You see, I am not willing to kick, push and shove my way to any opportunity. I am not willing to lie, steal and beg to get any opportunity. I am also not willing to take on any opportunity that I do not know without a shadow of a doubt that the Lord has said, "yes".

Live and Learn has proven it's truth to me more than once!

And last night, I started wondering, "Well, maybe that is how you get the opportunities."

But the Lord so firmly said, "NO. You wait. Until your name is called."

But here's the thing........righteous waiting does not mean standing still.

Righteous waiting does not mean just letting go of the dreams! Righteous waiting does not mean you try to knock everyone out in front of you! Righteous waiting does not mean you can't pursue, you can't try and you can't work!

There is much work to be done while waiting! I was listening to a sermon online last night after I watched Angela's message for the following week (I know double whammy!) and it was like the Lord just was speaking so clearly about working through the waiting.

You see, my generation wants the easy way out.

We want it our way, right away. We don't want to do the dirty work to get to where we are called to a righteous place! But we've got to. We've got to step away from the self-help books, we've got to step away from the shadows of those who have come before us, we've got to step away from Christianity for dummies philosophies! And we've got to step to the heart of the King. His word. His touch. His power.

We've got to work hard, study longer and pray like never before.....while we are waiting. There is probably more obedience to have happen during the waiting, than during our time. And it's the little things.....I'm telling you, the little things. Daily, moment by moment obedience.

So this all being said, I am no longer sitting on the edge waiting for that opportunity to meet with a publisher, or the head of this or that ministry, or for this phone call or this e-mail to come through.

I am going to no longer hiding the message in my heart that God has given me in fears that someone will swipe it out from under me because it's not my time yet.

I am getting ready while I am waiting. It's going to mean hard work on my part. It's going to mean dancing like never before.

So this means there might be some changes to this blog. Maybe it means a new blog. I don't know exactly but, I know that I'm ready to live again while I am in righteous waiting! And I know the changes are more about my life, the way I live during this time of waiting, than anything else.

Because I believe so strongly that the righteous waiting will either make us.....or break us. And while I'm not sure waiting is a requirement for everyone, for those of us who are waiting, it's the righteous waiting He is hoping for.

"Even the stork in the sky knows her appointed seasons and the dove, the swift and the thrush observe their time of their migration. But my people do not know the requirements of the Lord."-Jeremiah 8:7

When He says it's my turn.......I will be ready!