Wednesday, March 25, 2009

I need to get excited about something..so it might as well be Jesus!

What a week! And it's only half-way through!

Can I just tell you how ready I am for spring break? This woman needs a break! Between work, the girls, all kinds of church stuff and just the overwhelming things of "life", I could seriously crawl up in the bed and not come out for a few weeks! The more and more I see how our lives are running at a speed faster than any of us can catch up to, the more I realize why the Lord is calling/making me homeschool these girls next year.

We need to breathe. We need to work on our home. We need to work on our manners, the way we treat eachother and we need to just settle into life.

I have been battling the Lord with this homeschool thing more than you will ever know! I mean.....I have been a screaming fool at Him over this. "NO WAY. NOT DOING THIS. FIX THIS!"

But this past week my eyes have just been opened up to what as a mom I'm doing to my kids. I am burned out and they are burned out over me being burned out.

Here's what I'm the most scared of......the fact that my sweet husband is just never home. He works his tail off and I'm so grateful he does. And most likely that won't change next year. Even though we won't have the girls tuition anymore, he will still need to keep working extra. And when I say "extra" I mean.....not extra....you know??? Oh my, I'm so tired. =)

So I'm a little stressed about what our typical days will look like but I hope to still stay busy with out spending a lot of money. I can't just sit at home.....no way. I'll come up with something..I always do. =)

Also, I have not felt the Lord saying that this is permanent. I think it's for a season, especially with Taylor. But I'm just taking it one step at a time. Step one was finding out what type of circulum we are going to use and I think I've narrowed it down. It's called Sonlight. Check it out www.sonlight.com if you are researching all this too.

It is a little expensive but it's for both of the girls and Lord have mercy, it's less than ONE month at their school. The reason I like it so much is because it's very organized and since I'm not.....and I know we need a schedule and lesson plans, so it's worth it to me.

I've also found lot's of other things but.......to be honest, I'm STILL having a hard time getting excited about this whole thing. Forgive me for my honesty. But I will, I'll be one of those homeschooling bloggin momma's oh so soon.......I hope. =)

PLUS, I have a new idea about a home business!! I'm really excited but there's just no way I can get started right now. So I won't share.......just yet. =) But I am praying that it will possibly help put them back at their school when it's time.

I will be obedient but Lordy......I'm fighting this. Whew.

I have no idea why I just went into all that.......

Well tonight is week two well, really week one, since last week was intro, to When Wallflower's Dance the bible study! I have no idea what tonight will be like since I have heard of so many new women coming (Which I'm so excited about!), we are moving to a new room (Which will be better) and I've got a fresh message from the Lord on my heart.

And since a lot of "life" just kinda has me down today, I'm making a choice! To get excited about Jesus! He is the one thing I can always get excited about! Will you please pray for this beautiful group of women tonight? That God would just show up in a refreshing way, that His presence would be felt and that decisions will be made tonight.

Ok......well, this was a very random blog update. I have more exciting things to share soon on the home improvement front. God has been so good. He MUST want us in this house because He keeps making the way.......and even bringing the blessings. I can't wait to share what He's done, but I must have pictures and....well, it's not done yet.

Well ok then. Have a blessed day ya'll! I love you!

7 comments:

Joyful said...

"This is the day the Lord has made I WILL rejoice and be glad in it" (emphasis mine)!

Making that choice with you today to be happy in Jesus.

Love ya...hang in there,
Joy

ValleyGirl said...

I love the randomness ~ you're clearly dealing many things right now. Tell me you don't have at least a little peace now that you've actually reached a decision about homeschooling ~ I bet that's one big weight off your shoulders, even though you know it's going to challenge and stretch you. (when we toyed with the idea of doing it, that was the curriculum I would have chosen, too. There's just something comforting about having EVERYTHING all in one package!!)

Pastor Lisa said...

Nicki! I truly understand. Holy Spirit spoke to me and said to prepare to homeschool our youngest for middle school. Once he's done with this school year I'll have one more year.

I know that museums have classes for homeschoolers and am really excited about that.

Haven't picked out a curriculum but will look at the site you suggested.

You'll be OK.

Breathe!

Love you,

pla

Kay Martin said...

Running on Empty is a book I found helpful not long ago. So many moms/wives of young children sound like the "tank" is nearly dry. I love your solutions and that is key: solutions.

You will know and be motivated when Holy Spirit clearly shows you the way with the schooling. The transition of any new work is always challenging.

Don't beat yourself up with normal pain that always comes with transition and change.

When my census work is over in 2010 I want to start a home business. Keep me informed. You are so bright and innovative I can imagine you have come up with something wonderful.

Love you and I see great things throughout this post!!!

Rebecca Jo said...

I think its good you note that - that this is for a SEASON - if you home school - its not a permanent thing... I know many people who home schooled until it was time for high school - which I think is wise to get them with people before college... You know God will lead you!! Just keep trusting girlie!

On Purpose said...

Praying for you and the women at Bible study tonight!

Marilyn in Mississippi said...

I love reading "random" posts! More like just sitting and having a chat rather than a prepared talk! :)

Wanted to encourage you in the homeschooling area. If God is calling you to it, He will help you through it. He let my husband know that was what we were supposed to do way back in 1982 when our oldest child was kindergarten age. And you know NOBODY was hardly homeschooling back then! We were looked on as freaks! And it was really hard to find curriculum, too. In fact, A Beka would not sell to homeschoolers at that time. I went round and round with them. The next year they opened their eyes to the huge market they could have and have been courting the homeschoolers ever since!

We....mostly me as the stay-at-home Mom....homeschooled our 3 kids beginning in kindergarten and ending when the last one graduated 12th grade. It was a hard thing. I wanted to quit just about this time every year! But now that I look back on it, it's one of the VERY best things I ever did. All our children went on to college with ACT scholarships. They all are extremely well adjusted adults. Hard workers. Have good jobs. Very socially adept. AND....I wasn't sure if they would be glad they were homeschooled....they have each one told us that they are so glad they got to be homeschooled.

I am NOT a disciplined person so don't be fooled into thinking that is a requirement for a homeschool Mom. I am NOT the kind of person who is really laid back with her kids. I am NOT a fun, fun person. But I AM and was a Mama with a vision for her kids and I did everything possible to see that they were given the best possible education.

If God is calling you to homeschool, He will give you a COMMITTMENT for it. Even though some days it was a real chore for me, I was committed to seeing it though.

Go for it!

Marilyn