Monday, March 23, 2009

Cleaing house.

I write to you this morning curled up on the couch with the Kennyboo and her goldfish, Barney and my favorite blanket.

For the first time this year I'm really not feeling well.

Part of me says I'm just wore out, part of me says this is the enemy trying to knock me down so that I cannot prepare for Wed night (which will not happen) and another yet another part of me says that some news I got yesterday is making my body physically sick. I believe stress can do that......for sure.

But whatever it is, none the less I'm sitting here snuggled up with the Kennyboo, listening to Barney sing "Clean up, Clean up, Everybody everywhere, everybody do your share." and something just struck a nerve with me with that song.

I guess I've just come to realize that in this world, there is always going to be opposition. There is always going to be a victory and then a loss. There is always just going to be mean people, those who deceive others and pretend that time will erase that. There is just always going to be something going on with someone.

The further I get into life, the more I see it.

See, sometimes I feel like I live in a bubble. That no one would ever intentionally do something to harm someone else, no one would ever kick, scream, push and shove to get their place in "life" and even that no one would ever.....lie.

Well......can I just share that my bubble has been popped before and it was popped again yesterday.

For sure.

And here I sit today.....listening to Barney singing about everyone cleaning up. I cannot help but think that this could be something we all need to do today, myself included. Clean house. Everybody, Everywhere.

Saying I'm sorry for what I did. Making things right for a lie told. To stop pushing, stop shoving and waiting patiently for your turn. To be happy for other's and encourage those that come along beside of us. To not steal from other's whether material or emotional. To stop sweeping things under the rug and deal with them in a timely manner.

Here me say this.........I know that I am no one. I know that I am young and maybe don't have the right to make these types of bold statements. I do not feel like the Lord has given me some type of special permission to say these things. But I feel like the Lord just sometimes must feel like I do today......just fed up.

Jesus. He is the answer. He is the solution. He is the grand prize. He is the winner. He is the victor. He is the King. He is the first across the line. He is the truth. He is the way. He is trustworthy. He is loyal. He is the most beautiful. He is perfect. He is worthy. He is life. He is good. He is sweet. He is kind. He is generous. He is encouraging. He is pure. He is Holy. He is righteous. He is what fills those empty places in our souls.

He is what cover us.

Jesus.

He is who died for broken down Jesus girls like me.

Jesus.

So I'm cleaning house today, in my heart. And for everything that shouldn't be there, I'm replacing it with His name.........Jesus. Jesus, Jesus.

It starts with me.

13 comments:

Marilyn in Mississippi said...

So good !!! Good to clean house in our heart!
And even though we know bad things are gonna happen to "pop our bubble" seems we are never ready for it and it's always like a surprise! And not for the good either!
I am feeling under the weather lately also. Headed to the doctor AGAIN. This is the 3rd Monday in a row! And for different things! This needs to stop! :)

Hope you feel better soon!

Marilyn

Rebecca Jo said...

Sorry to hear that your bubble was popped... but you have to know, Jesus DOES & CAN CONTINUE to speak through you - especially of those moments of bubbles bursted!

Dont be discouraged... sounds like you're not... but dont focus on the "poppers" (oops - I spelled poopers at first!!! - Fruedian slip?) - but focus on God & keep going girl!! You are a true blessing & a speaker of the TRUTH!

Mimi C said...

Well said Nicki...You speak with wisdom and power. God continues to use you in every situation. Love mom

Jennifer said...

Such a great post...and I agree - the stress of somethings can definitely affect us physically! Hope that a day snuggled on the couch with your sweetie (and Barney) will have you feeling much better tomorrow.

Jennifer said...

Such a great post...and I agree - the stress of somethings can definitely affect us physically! Hope that a day snuggled on the couch with your sweetie (and Barney) will have you feeling much better tomorrow.

Sarah Martin said...

Girl! We are so on the same brain wave length. I did not see your blog post today till after I wrote mine. Wow-let's both clean house together. Great thoughts!


love,
sarah

ps, I have to admit something...I am not really cleaning my house myself (literally-not like above) One of the perks of hubby deployed is that I get a house keeper. But, that will go away when he comes home :( ha ha!

Kay Martin said...

Coming to see the contrasts in life takes the wind out of us in our youth. There are dark hues and bright hues in our landscape...could this be one of God's ways to show us to expect the opposites all along in life?

Folks..I can't figure 'em out. No one knows what I think or what makes me tick. We really can't know what's going on inside anyone else either. God tells us not to judge...over and over He tells us this. That was one of my toughest truths to finally embrace. But once I realized He chose me; loved me and always loves me; I came to acceptance of ME. When some of us have had hard blows in our youth that gives us "rejection" mindsets it seems harder to come into the beautiful place of His acceptance forever. Other people can't move me like they once did once I have His acceptance.

Remember the Bible shows us over and over God's anointed teachers,preachers, leaders get more heat from those who operate in less visible ministry.

It's Jesus in us that causes most of the uproar. Trust Him; and love the folks no matter what. Ask Him to keep showing you how to get to the place that He truly is enough. When the closest ones to you don't meet your needs I know you already know He will. Jesus is enough.

I love your open heart. I am always blessed here. I will pray today for you to heal and shine Jesus tomorrow night. What a blessed group of women to have you as teacher/leader. The greater the anointing I've found the greater the uproar.

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Pastora Debbie said...

I love this post because I have been where you are before and I have felt the same frustration about those who pop my bubble but today...like you I decided not to give the victory to the enemy and get MY act together. Reading your post just gave me more encouragement and fervor to keep up the fight
Blessings!

Ginger said...

What a wonderful post! You are so right. This verse is powerful and will get your through those most frustrating times in your life.

James 1:3 Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

Keep the faith!

Ginger said...

Sorry...James 1:12! I'm getting old and can't see the little numbers in my bible! Ha!

KD said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog and giving me the opportunity to discover yours. So I sit here and read and read some more. I have enjoyed every word and every feeling you convey. Thanks you for sharing.
~KD

LeAnne said...

This is so good. Totally understood too!