"In spite of".
What does that mean exactly to you?
I tend to think it means to say something along the lines of a "because" or "anyway" or even perhaps a "will do".
Last night I began reading the When Wallflowers Dance book by Angela Thomas. My closest friends know how much I love Angela. She is totally my BFF!! So I was very eager to get started reading.
(I am going to be teaching this class in the spring and hope to do an online study along with it. I haven't worked all those details out yet, but I will be sure to let you know so if you want to follow along with us, you can!)
Well, as I was reading I came across this sentence, that really didn't have a whole lot to do with the chapter but struck me hard!
This is what a portion of it said, ".....and truly coming to know a very beautiful life, in spite of all that's happened."
I stopped right there and the Lord immediately began to speak.
This week has been full of disappointments in life for me. I've had some hurtful events happen and some hard steps to taken only to be slammed back in my face.
I have wanted to give up this blog, face book and everything else that "requires" me to share who I am.
This past summer, I opened up the doors to a grand ballroom with my God. I took His hand and he spun me around and around. I held tight to His arms and I opened my heart to all He had for me! I did! I REALLY DID.
But.....through it all, I have held onto things that I shouldn't. Things I surrender and then let creep back in. Those feelings of "I'll never be good enough." or "It's never gonna be like I want it to." Things that make you want to stop dancing.
Do you know what those feelings can lead to?
Loneliness. Bitterness. Fearful. Resentful or even Hatred.
We can surrender until we are blue in the face, but God spoke so clearly to me that until we choose to live......."in spite of"....our lives are never going to be beautiful.
If we can't be happy "in spite of" our circumstances.....we will never be happy!
If we can't say I'm sorry "in spite of" our pride.....we will never experience forgiveness!
If we can't forgive "in spite of" never having an apology....we will never be free!
If we can't believe God will "in spite of" our lack of faith......we will never experience faithfulness!
Now.....I had wanted to write this post out early this morning, but I just couldn't seem to get the words together. It was like the Lord was saying to me, "Are you really going to believe this?"
Because all day......I have chosen to dance with God "in spite of". Yes, it's only been one day, but amazing things can happen in our hearts if we choose to live day by day.
Ya'll......this is a powerful thing. To live.......To dance.....To experience God....."in spite of".
This isn't exactly Angela's message in her book, but my oh my how I needed to hear this from the Lord at that moment!!
And so... I need to know........what you are choosing......."In spite of"?
ps-This is my last post for a few days. We have lot's going on this weekend and then two days of Christmas programs at pre-school. AHHH. I'm not at ALL nervous. ha ha. =)
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Thursday, December 11, 2008
"In spite of".