Monday, September 29, 2008

Safe in His Arms

Watch this video first please or at least play the song while you read this one today it will mean so much more:



We have to run to His arms.

It's the only place that safety, peace, love, joy, comfort and trust is found.

I'm quite emotional today. Some of it may be from the medicine I'm on, but I believe God has me in a tender sweet spot that I never want to forget.

I went back to the doctor this morning and got a good report! The steroids are working and my tumor is shrinking! My doctor was really great about giving me the facts.

The facts right now are this, the steroids are working but this could return once we stop the steroids (which will be a month or so). If it comes back then radiation will be the treatment.

Again, a road I will cross when I get there. Right now, I'm just running with the good news!!!

You know, lately storms have been very real in my life and in our family. With everything we just went through with Hope and now this with my eye and we just found out my new little nephew is having trouble hearing, it could be really easy to slip into a dark spot.

After my appointment I got into my car and this was the first song that came on the radio.

Tears overcame my soul.

Waves will come. Storms will come. Dreams may fade. Life may not turn out like we plan.

But,

We will always be safe in His arms.

I have a new acceptance for storms in our lives.

The truth is that although I've always been a very compassionate person, until you go through scary things like these it's hard to understand how another person feels during times like this.

I've thought and prayed for my dear friend Cindy, who is battling breast cancer, many times over the last few days. As I was in the CT scan, having blood taken, shots and a rush of doctors, I knew exactly how she has felt. It's scary. I have and am crying tears for her precious heart.

I've thought about the comments I have received, what helps, what doesn't help. How important it is to build each other up and not tear down.

I've cried over the dear family and friends who have loved and encouraged us through this last week. Friends who continue to stand beside us through it all. Precious friends and family.

For my husband who doesn't always know what to say, but will make the most incredible shutters for our house, just because he loves me and knew it would make me smile! (he really did that yesterday!!)

My sweet girly's who wrote all over our driveway with chalk a get well eye message! It was so sweet! And a TOTAL God-thing was that Kennedy made a get well card for her church project yesterday and walked right out of her room and said, "Dis is for du mommy."

But nothing, and I mean nothing can compare to how close I have felt in God's arms this week. The simplest ways He has spoken to me and assured me He was there.

His name is Emmanuel, God with us. God in me.

I've had tears of joy thinking about this new task ahead of me, leading little children to begin lives of worship, in His arms. Something I will never take lightly. I have an incredible chance to show them the amazing sense of dancing with their King.

(tears)

Oh Father, may I never forget all that you've shown me this week. May I never again take the fact that I can see for granted. I embrace this storm. I embrace it because I know I will be safe in your arms. Thank you Lord for all your love, grace and kindness to me. Castles have crumbled in my life this week, but I always know you love me and you show me your humble love each and every day. Thank you for all these incredible people in my life. Thank you for their love, support and grace to me and our family.

Walking by faith, WITH sight,
Nicki

"Guide our feet into the way of peace" -Luke 1:79

14 comments:

ValleyGirl said...

Wow, Nicki. Just... wow. THIS is what you were made for.

Sharon Brumfield said...

I don't understand all that is going on.....but I do know He is holding you. How sweet is this tender spot His has you in. Isn't it amazing that we can experience the most intimate times with Him when we are hurting?
But...only if we hold our arms out.
Sounds like that is what you are doing. Keep sitting in His lap.

While on our trip this weekend I saw a sign that said..Charlotte-->
You were prayed for. :)
Love ya girl

On Purpose said...

Dear Heavenly Father thank you for holding your beautiful daughter tight in Your arms and giving her the gift of faith in you! Protect her, her daughters, her husband, help them to be surrounded by Your precious love! Amen

Amy L Brooke said...

I am praying for you! Thanks for sharing your heart.

Joyful said...

Beautiful Nicki. As you remain safe in His arms, let your head rest and listen to His heartbeat. It's beating with the steady pulse of His never-ending love.

Praying for you,
Joy

MelanieJoy said...

Our pastor preached on the storms in our lives just yesterday. He made the statement that when Jesus came walking on the water it was during the darkest hour of the night. How the disciples were afraid and thought Him a ghost. The thing the disciples were most afraid of....became the best thing that ever happened to them!! I pray that this is a water walk to good things...praying.

Anonymous said...

Dear Nicki...Dad and I rejoice with the great news of "the tumor". Beautifully written blog that really speaks of just how glorious our God is! One thing for sure...life is a journey:) In all things we sure do give thanks! Love Mom

My Army Brats and Me said...

I am so glad the meds are working. I am praying for you Nicki! Thanks for being a rock.

love Cindy

Kay Martin said...

Nicki....thank God the steroids are shrinking the tumor. My daughter had to take radiation for her brain tumor. She had all kinds of phobias and God blessed her instantly and she did just fine.

That was 12 years ago and she is so fine. You are right...unless we have a "limp" to show the evidence that we have had to go through something and God was there for us we have nothing to say that anyone wants to hear.

None of this will be wasted. I'm blown away by the shutters and the beautiful one of a kind art extraganza driveway.

I love you and I know that I know this will all be well.

Jamie @ Purposeful Pursuit said...

My eyes are filled with tears...this post is beautiful!!! My weary heart needed this today. Your heart is so precious, thank you for sharing it with us. I'll keep praying for you and I'm so thankful you received a good report.

Cindy said...

Safe! In the arms of God!
The way we should face everyday, every trial, every joy, every moment of life.
Safe! In the arms of God you ARE!!!

Kim said...

Girl, I am so sorry that you are having to experience this storm but so blessed to see that you are looking up! What a beautiful post despite your circumstances - praying for healing!

Kim

Irritable Mother said...

Oh, Nicki. I just love that this song came on the radio right when you got into your car. God was playing DJ, wasn't He? He was singing to you. You have been serenaded by the King!!!
And He will hold you. He will be your Rock through the storm.
Thank You, Father, for loving Nicki through this trial. Thank You that You know the course of treatment which will be necessary for her. Thank You that You are not surprised by any of the storms which have come into her life recently. Or ever.
I'm asking You now to grow Nicki's faith, to show her Your power, to overwhelm her with Your love and presence. Father, please cover Nicki. Please give her so much peace that she can do nothing but praise You. Let the tears that flow be tears of gratitude for Who You Are.
Amen and amen.

Nana Trish is Living the Dream said...

I will be praying for you. You are a sweetheart and He is still on the throne. much love and prayers, Trish