Monday, July 14, 2008

To come and dance

Have you ever walked into a room and not one person turned their head?

I have.

Have you ever tried to be a friend to all and found yourself alone?

I have.

Have you ever wondered if people like you, if they think your real or if they think your a fool?

I have.

It's some un-godly hour in my home at the moment. But, It is quite for the first time in hours! This house has had more noise than should be allowed in one day! In fact, not even the refrigerator is humming at the moment.

Silence is golden!

Or so I thought...

Through the silence, these questions have been on my mind for the last few hours. I've tossed and turned in my bed. I've stared at the shadows on my wall. I've fluffed the pillow a hundred times. Turned the TV on and off, on and off. I've thought of my "to do" list over and over.

And yet, these questions still lay in my soul stirring. So I got up, and God said, "Let's talk."

It's funny how just a few nights ago I was telling a room full of women how we long to be validated, to be wanted, to be noticed...and here I am, in the quiet, still place asking myself these very questions again!

The woman's's a confusing place to be, wouldn't you agree God?

(He's laughing hysterically right now)

We want so badly to be the one God picks! We want so badly for our dreams to come true! We want to get off the wall and start dancing...yet there is so much that can hold us back.

So when do we start dancing?

Dancing has always been so awkward for me. I want to get out there and bust a move, I want to shag like there's no tomorrow and I so want to know how to do the Cha Cha Slide!

But what if I don't have the right moves? What if I look like a fool? What if I'm the only one on the dance floor? What if none of my friends think my dance is cool?

Or even worse God... what if I fall flat on my face?

How can I take my God's hand and start spinning around and around, if I don't know these moves. They aren't familiar to me. At all.

But the King has reminded me, He knows these moves. He's got every step down to a "T". He's paid for my ticket to the ball. And, He's picked out some really cool dancing shoes for me too. He's got the lead.

He's asked me to come and dance the dance of my life with...Him. It's a dance of faith, trust, forgiveness, truth and love.

But it's not an easy dance. There are going to be some tricky steps, times I might just fall! And something might just might be...broken.

And God's asking, "Are you up for this challenge?"

Oh sweet God, "I just want to honor you, so yes, I am ready. When do we begin?"

And my King just held out his hand and said, "When the music plays. When the music...plays."

"You and I are invited to dance in His Arms just because of His mercy and grace. No previous experience required. Free dancing lessons to everyone who would believe He is True. The music has already started. Just follow His lead." -Angela Thomas

"Listen O daughter, consider and give ear; Forget your people and your father's house. The king is enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your Lord." -Psalm 45:10-11


nanatrish said...

Beautifully written, Nicki. I listened to your webcast and you are truly a gifted speaker. I could hear so much love and sincerity in your voice. God is blessing you and I am so glad I have gotten to know you better. Are you going to put future podcasts, webcasts, whatever you call them on-line? I hope so. Praise the Lord you are listening to Him call you. Love, Trish

LeAnne said...

This is so good!! Thank you for putting your heart out there.

Room for Grace said...

I listened to your podcast yesterday and loved it. You have such a strong speaking voice and now I can "hear" you as I read your posts!
I'm doing "No Other Gods" by Kelly Minter right now, and am just wondering if it might fit together with the study you are doing. I think/know that I sometimes put the opinions of others, or desires for certain things to happen as a god in my life, where all of my thinking is focused in that direction, instead of upon God Himself.
Thanks for making me think about this today, I needed it!

Room for Grace said...

Oh, yeah, and I'm with Trish above, are you going to put your future talks up on your site? I'd love to hear them if you decide to!

ThreeGirlyGirls said...

Hey Ladies!

I don't normally post back here in the comments but I just wanted to thank each of you so much for you love and support! I'm so glad you liked the podcast, I was so nervous to post it on here. It was hard to do!

I do plan on posting the other talks I do. They might not be as long as some since we will have Angela's video to watch this week!

Mommy + RN said...

You have such inspiring words~ I love to read your blogs!! Thank you for putting it out there for all of us to read!!

Heather said...

OK try this one.... The name didnt work but my email address did!!

Kay Martin said...

Love the blog renovation. Beautiful just like you.

I could hear the music as I read this blog post. Well done.

You wrote:
how we long to be validated, to be wanted, to be noticed...and here I am, in the quiet, still place asking myself these very questions again!

I believe we have than longing so that we will call out to God. Doesn't the Bible tell us we have blessings when we hunger and thirst for Him? In this self ... me ... culture I believe we sometimes over internalize normal longings Just because there is a pain, a longing, an ache does not mean there is something wrong with us. Possibly that ache or need is a blessing to draw us to Him.

Truth4thejourney said...

This is beautiful! We are given that longing to dance with our King! He's stanging there waiting for us to take His hand. Precious thoughts for today. :)

On Purpose said...

Hello Nicki!

How was your weekend?

I am still trying to figure out how to hear the podcast...


Michelle said...

Thank you so much for this. It was much needed for me in a fragile time of my life. Thanks for being obidient.

Amy L Brooke said...

This was great. We are so alike in so many ways! Looking the fool keeps me from dancing too.

Recently I uncovered a CD. It was made by a friend of mine, but you can get it online too. His name is Marty Feldhake the and the CD is very much folk.

When I listened to it recently, I rediscoverd a song he has on it called, "Hope Hears the Music." Here is the chorus (which unfortunately does not play when you listen to it on the itunes store): Hope hears the music of the future before it's played. Faith it is the courage to dance to it today. How beautiful is that thought?

Dance because God is your partner and nothing you do in him would look foolish to him. He is the one that matters.

Now, I need to heed those words myself.

MiMi said...

I could not help but hear Steven Curtis Chapman's "Cinderella" in my mind as I was reading this post. It is such a beautiful song and this was a beautiful post! I could just picture myself taking the hand of God and twirling around to this song.

In the past I have worried about looking like a fool, too, but I know that if God is my partner He is going to make me look good! Like you said He knows all the moves and He's got the lead. All I have to do is follow HIS lead!

Thanks for reminding me of this!

Dani said...

Hi my name is Dani and I am 18. I just came across your blog from Dena's. I just wanted to tell you that I love this post. It too as the person above me said reminds me of SCC's song "Cinderella". I have struggled with this issues several times. I seem to be alone a lot. Not neccesarilly lonely but alone. I do get lonely sometimes though. It a sweet time when you rest in God and let him be your company. I have been privileged lately to have many sweet moments with God. I am ready for what he has for me. Anyways..I just wanted to say HI!

Love and prayers, Dani

Dani said...

Oh and I noticed your blog header was made at So is mine...awesome site. :)

Angela @ Refresh My Soul Blog said...

That is beautiful!
Much love,

freetofly said...

Some of your best, Nicki. Some of your best. Bless you child!

Btw, love the new look!