"A Fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control."
I read this verse after a conversation I had that made me angry.
Ever have one of those?
You know the kind where the other person talks 90% of the time and you just keep boiling up inside? Where you cannot get off the phone quick enough? Mmmmhmm...it was one of those.
As I hung up the phone...I sat there for a moment and then my girls were suddenly acting like FOOLS everywhere. I mean screaming, yelling, jumping up and down, hitting, screaming and jumping some more...and very quickly that little thing called "anger" starting boiling over!
And so I turned to my God. I said, "Please, speak to me. Because, I'M GOING OFF THE DEEP END IN EXACTLY 1.5 SECONDS."
I opened my bible to this exact verse. I wish I was joking. God was so in my face about it!
You see, it's ok for us to get angry. It's ok for us to be upset. It's ok for us to not ever want to speak to someone again. It's probably even ok to scream in our pillows?
But in that anger, are we in control? Or our emotions in control?
Are we heading the wise way? Or are we heading the foolish way?
I know I always "want" to be heading the wise way, but I'd say that I do at times run the foolish way. It's sadly, just easier many times.
As I approach my ripe old age of 28 (haha) in just a few days, I'm learning much...
I'm learning to keep my mouth shut.
I'm learning to be still.
I'm learning to take it ALL with a grain of salt. And I mean IT ALL.
I'm learning there are always two sides.
I'm learning to run to Him instead of the phone.
I'm learning that somethings, they just aren't worth it.
I'm learning to give smiles more than sighs.
I'm learning to turn to God's word, instead of mine.
I'm learning that I'm wrong, many times. And, it's ok.
I'm learning the word "vent" isn't so great.
I'm learning to accept things when they don't turn out the way I planned.
I'm learning disappointment, it's just apart of life, and it will always be.
I'm learning that the best things, are not planned things.But,
I've learned more than anything......God's ways are never, ever foolish.
So His way, is the way I want to go for the next 28 years.
And just like this picture...MY plan.....it's out the window!