It's late......for me anyways.
I am normally fast asleep by now. But I just have so much on my mind.
We have had a great weekend. It started off by an amazing night at my house on Friday. I had our Sunday school women over for our monthly women praying for marriages. We had Mexican night which was soooooooo yummy, but.......food is not what I want to share with you at this moment. (although, it was GOOOOOD!)
Ya'll.......amazing things happened right here in this little old house. Walls were broken down, hearts were opened up and GOD WAS HERE. It's such an amazing thought, to know and experience His presence like we did as a group. And I will be quite frankly honest for a moment.......our class has been through A LOT over the past few years. Scary things have happened, marriages have been ruined, lives have taken the wrong turn. But here, on the floor, we wept, we cried, we prayed, we lifted each other up......all in His Name.
I shared that although I like to be fun and do silly things, I knew that God's voice had clearly shown me that more than ever we as a group of women, needed to come together in prayer, confession, worship and love for each other for our homes. And forgive me if I was the only one who thought so....but it was what God had planned. I was sooooooooo blessed by these women.
And then I was blessed some more.......... There is someone, and they know who they are, I don't, but they do....that just knocked my socks off with a so unexpected blessing in my life. I was so in awe of the Lord for answering a huge prayer of mine through someone I don't even know who did it!!! But whoever you are, you know and the Lord knows, and I pray the biggest blessing upon you right now!!!
Saturday Taylor had a pool party to go to and poor Kris had to work OUTSIDE in some HOT HOT HOT weather. So that left me with the Kennyboo and the Hopie. We twiddled our thumbs for a while trying to think of something to do that didn't cost to much money, and that Kennedy would co-operate (which isn't very much at the moment). So we settled on the pool outside. Now ya'll.....this isn't like some really cool pool that squirts water and has a slide, it's tiny! But we had the best time! Shooting water guns at each other, laying on our belly's (because that was all there was room for!!) eating Popsicles and just being silly.
HopeAnn said to me today, "Mommy, I had the BEST time yesterday!" And I thought.....well my word, is that all it takes???? But I realized, there was a missing factor...Taylor. Not that she's a negative factor, but there were only two that had to share the mommy, instead of three. Amazingly different dynamics!! I was blessed. And Taylor was blessed to be away from her sissy's for a while!!!
And then today, Dr. Rummage preached another kick butt sermon, and the presence of God just overwhelmed me. His sermon was on Forgiveness and he said somethings I've never really thought of before. Through worship and his words, I was blessed.
You say you forgive someone, (just like God forgives us) but then you don't want anything to do with them..........Is this how God forgives us???? No.
That one stuck with me today. NO, God doesn't say we have to be best friends with everyone, but there really is a lot of truth in this. Forgiveness really is wiping the slate clean, never looking back, and never bringing it back up.......ouch. That's REALLY hard to do sometimes. I thought about my marriage with that one. How many times have Kris and I said, "I'm sorry." Only to hear it again YEARS later. ***Guilty**** as charged!
I can see that this is something God is going to be brewing in my soul for awhile. And that's ok, I've got to wrap my mind and heart completely around it!!!
Then this afternoon we spent some time with good friends at their pool. I was blessed some more! We have definitely made our "Tour of Pools" this summer. =) Thanks to some sweet friends!! (They BLESS ME!!!) They know this momma is DESPERATE for busy girly's!! Even the Kennyboo has done so well, she tells everyone "I can fim!" (swim)
With She Speaks just two short weeks away, the Do you think I'm beautiful bible study coming, the beach, the prayer retreat.........I am so looking foreword to so much this summer. But not just for how tan I can get and how much fun we can have......but what God's going to do!!! And I feel like I just got a glimpse.......just a glimpse of it this weekend. I am so blessed.
I'm more nervous than ever about She Speaks, but it gives me butterflies filled with hope and grace of what is to come. What is to come??? I can't wait to see what God does through other women with "Do you think I'm beautiful" by Angela Thomas.......oh ya'll....it's just an amazing study, and hearts will never be the same!!!
I'm also sad and filled with so many emotions about my second one getting ready for Kindergarten. (deep sighs)Time just goes by so fast...... And I'm also still very anxious about what's going to happen with our house......we are getting down to the wire. But I'm just trusting......trusting that no matter what, we are going to be in God's will, because I'd rather be there than in the most beautiful house in Charlotte.
But even through those many emotions that I am feeling, I am blessed.
And isn't that what really matters at the end of the day (or the beginning of a new one at this hour!) to know that, No.....life is not perfect, bills still have to be paid, laundry still has to be done, grocery shopping, crying eyes to wipe, bottoms will still need to be spanked (oh gasp away, yes I spank when needed), fights will still need a referee, potty training will still need to happen (at some point), and life will just carry on good and bad........but at the end of the day, or the start.......we are blessed.
I'm not sure how much blogging will happen this week. My thoughts and prayers are really being focused into getting ready for She Speaks........so unless you want to hear every day about that, I might just keep things to a quiet chirpy tone.......you know, crazy kids, funny mouths, and maybe some frugal quick tips that I've come across.
I love ya'll......and thanks for taking the time to read my many thoughts. It means a lot, even if you don't ever say hello to me, it means a lot. =)
Ok, so now I'm ready to go and save the world!! Or.....maybe I'll just go to sleep. (*grins) love ya'll!
Sunday, June 08, 2008
It's late......for me anyways.