Sunday, June 08, 2008

I am blessed

It's late......for me anyways.

I am normally fast asleep by now. But I just have so much on my mind.

We have had a great weekend. It started off by an amazing night at my house on Friday. I had our Sunday school women over for our monthly women praying for marriages. We had Mexican night which was soooooooo yummy, is not what I want to share with you at this moment. (although, it was GOOOOOD!)

Ya'll.......amazing things happened right here in this little old house. Walls were broken down, hearts were opened up and GOD WAS HERE. It's such an amazing thought, to know and experience His presence like we did as a group. And I will be quite frankly honest for a moment.......our class has been through A LOT over the past few years. Scary things have happened, marriages have been ruined, lives have taken the wrong turn. But here, on the floor, we wept, we cried, we prayed, we lifted each other up......all in His Name.

I shared that although I like to be fun and do silly things, I knew that God's voice had clearly shown me that more than ever we as a group of women, needed to come together in prayer, confession, worship and love for each other for our homes. And forgive me if I was the only one who thought so....but it was what God had planned. I was sooooooooo blessed by these women.

And then I was blessed some more.......... There is someone, and they know who they are, I don't, but they do....that just knocked my socks off with a so unexpected blessing in my life. I was so in awe of the Lord for answering a huge prayer of mine through someone I don't even know who did it!!! But whoever you are, you know and the Lord knows, and I pray the biggest blessing upon you right now!!!

Saturday Taylor had a pool party to go to and poor Kris had to work OUTSIDE in some HOT HOT HOT weather. So that left me with the Kennyboo and the Hopie. We twiddled our thumbs for a while trying to think of something to do that didn't cost to much money, and that Kennedy would co-operate (which isn't very much at the moment). So we settled on the pool outside. Now ya'll.....this isn't like some really cool pool that squirts water and has a slide, it's tiny! But we had the best time! Shooting water guns at each other, laying on our belly's (because that was all there was room for!!) eating Popsicles and just being silly.

HopeAnn said to me today, "Mommy, I had the BEST time yesterday!" And I thought.....well my word, is that all it takes???? But I realized, there was a missing factor...Taylor. Not that she's a negative factor, but there were only two that had to share the mommy, instead of three. Amazingly different dynamics!! I was blessed. And Taylor was blessed to be away from her sissy's for a while!!!

And then today, Dr. Rummage preached another kick butt sermon, and the presence of God just overwhelmed me. His sermon was on Forgiveness and he said somethings I've never really thought of before. Through worship and his words, I was blessed.

For example:

You say you forgive someone, (just like God forgives us) but then you don't want anything to do with them..........Is this how God forgives us???? No.

That one stuck with me today. NO, God doesn't say we have to be best friends with everyone, but there really is a lot of truth in this. Forgiveness really is wiping the slate clean, never looking back, and never bringing it back up.......ouch. That's REALLY hard to do sometimes. I thought about my marriage with that one. How many times have Kris and I said, "I'm sorry." Only to hear it again YEARS later. ***Guilty**** as charged!

I can see that this is something God is going to be brewing in my soul for awhile. And that's ok, I've got to wrap my mind and heart completely around it!!!

Then this afternoon we spent some time with good friends at their pool. I was blessed some more! We have definitely made our "Tour of Pools" this summer. =) Thanks to some sweet friends!! (They BLESS ME!!!) They know this momma is DESPERATE for busy girly's!! Even the Kennyboo has done so well, she tells everyone "I can fim!" (swim)

With She Speaks just two short weeks away, the Do you think I'm beautiful bible study coming, the beach, the prayer retreat.........I am so looking foreword to so much this summer. But not just for how tan I can get and how much fun we can have......but what God's going to do!!! And I feel like I just got a glimpse.......just a glimpse of it this weekend. I am so blessed.

I'm more nervous than ever about She Speaks, but it gives me butterflies filled with hope and grace of what is to come. What is to come??? I can't wait to see what God does through other women with "Do you think I'm beautiful" by Angela Thomas.......oh ya''s just an amazing study, and hearts will never be the same!!!

I'm also sad and filled with so many emotions about my second one getting ready for Kindergarten. (deep sighs)Time just goes by so fast...... And I'm also still very anxious about what's going to happen with our house......we are getting down to the wire. But I'm just trusting......trusting that no matter what, we are going to be in God's will, because I'd rather be there than in the most beautiful house in Charlotte.

But even through those many emotions that I am feeling, I am blessed.

And isn't that what really matters at the end of the day (or the beginning of a new one at this hour!) to know that, is not perfect, bills still have to be paid, laundry still has to be done, grocery shopping, crying eyes to wipe, bottoms will still need to be spanked (oh gasp away, yes I spank when needed), fights will still need a referee, potty training will still need to happen (at some point), and life will just carry on good and bad........but at the end of the day, or the start.......we are blessed.

I'm not sure how much blogging will happen this week. My thoughts and prayers are really being focused into getting ready for She unless you want to hear every day about that, I might just keep things to a quiet chirpy know, crazy kids, funny mouths, and maybe some frugal quick tips that I've come across.

I love ya'll......and thanks for taking the time to read my many thoughts. It means a lot, even if you don't ever say hello to me, it means a lot. =)

Ok, so now I'm ready to go and save the world!! Or.....maybe I'll just go to sleep. (*grins) love ya'll!


Speaking Thru Me Ministries said...

thank you for blogging about the Sunday school class - that blesses me!!!
keep on girl!!!!!!!
love, leigh

Pastor Lisa said...

We've been talking a lot of forgiveness too. That God really can bring you to a place of healing if you are willing.

I've been healed in some areas that I thought would surely be wounded forever. But I'm healed, I've forgiven and it's all good.

Alisun said...

Forgiveness is always a touchy subject with me I have this tendency to want to pick at the wound with some people more than others. A work in progress.

My Army Brats and Me said...

You are going to have fun at your conference. You have a way with words. It's your thing. Still sick-just wanted to say hi.

Stephanie D. said...

You are so right on the service, girl he was right on. I just can't quit thinking about everything he was saying. I wish I would have know about the praying for husbands. Let me know when you are doing it again.

Nana Trish is Living the Dream said...

Nicki, I am so excited about your upcoming conference at SheSpeaks. I feel like this is something you have really anticipated with so much enthusiasm. This will be a wonderful summer for you and the girls. The years pass by so fast but you will always have the sweetest memories of your time with each other. God has been so good to us and I love reading your adventures with the girls.

Sarah Martin said...

I hope your preparations are going well for the conference. Let us know what you are going to speak about-I am excited to hear about it!

baby born May 31-pic is on my blog!!!!!

ValleyGirl said...

Sounds like your cup 'overfloweth' right now! What a wonderful season of blessings!!