Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Stressed out.....TO THE MAX

Ya'll.........I am on overload right now, I'm not quite sure what I'm going to do. I'm ready to go off on someone! I just need to breathe.....things are very stressful with our closing being tomorrow, my brother and.......the puppy, my girls and their attitudes and all of these projects I have going on. AHHHH. To make matters worse I am very sleep deprived today as was up a bunch last night and I just had a million things running through my mind. Paint swatches, fabric colors, furniture arrangements.......really important stuff!! =) haa!!

Kris has been so awesome. He has just stepped it up tremendously with all of this. I don't know what has happened to my husband but he has become incredibly sweet lately!! I'm taking it and running!! =) Not that he hasn't always been sweet.....but I just see him becoming more of the "head" of our house. Calling people, taking care of things, and just being great. The girls have also been incredibly sweet through this process despite their attitudes today.

The strange thing was so laid back a couple of weeks ago........not much going on and now it's like BOOM all of the sudden there are weddings to attend, parties coming up, running things, church stuff, school getting ready to start and it's like life is back in crazy mode. Don't get me wrong.....I love to be busy, but it's just like it's getting back to reality! I'm excited though, I cannot wait! I just can't wait to start having friends over again........oh I miss just having people over!

A very sweet friend of mine (who shall remain anonymous) called me the other day. She recently moved away and I miss her so much. I always tell her she is my life fast foreword five years (she has three girls all the same ages apart as mine). She is so sweet and always so encouraging to me. She's been a BIG supporter of me and I'm so thankful for her. Whether it's been through bible study, hair bows, breast feeding, girly' name it, she's been encouraging!! =) But what I wanted to share about her, is how I see God using her.

I was driving to the airport to pick up Kris and I was actually thinking about what my next bible study was going to be on. And Bingo, the phone rings and it's her. And what's SO amazing is, I was thinking "well, maybe I should just pick a book like a Beth Moore study or something and try to do it" when she called. Back up a minute........this friend was the one who encouraged me so much through my writing and it was really her idea (even though she may not realize it) for me to start writing. So, I tell you all of this to share that she has been a huge act of confirmation in my life. Once again.........God says no, and presses me to KEEP WRITING. I don't know where it's going to go, and I don't even think my writing is all that great, but I know I've got to press on.

So, in the midst of all this chaos........I just have to sit at my sweet Lord's feet and soak up HIS goodness. No matter what people have knocked me down before and done just plain rude things to me, I just have to let them go and know, that God is working through my friendships right now. But sometimes it's still so hard to let some things go. I'm still praying for God to send me a mentor through all of this. I really need someone that will say to me, You are way off on this or You are right on. Someone who's been there....."through it all" already. I think I'm going to sign up for an online writing class this fall. At least if I do it online I know that I can do it on my own time. Kris is so busy (which is good!) that I think I need to do this on my own. I've also thought about putting Kennedy is a mother's morning out just one day....but I will have to wait and see what our budget is really going to be like.

So, I've got a lot on my mind right now. And right now I'd better head back out in that heat and get this kitchen table refinished NOW. It's taking a lot longer than I thought. And I've got these two little "helpers" that tend to make things a little harder. Bless their hearts!! =) But the parts that are done are looking really good! Maybe I'll be able to post some pictures later! Well, better scadoodle away! Have a blessed one....thanks for chatting with me for a moment!!! =) hee hee, that's a hint.......comments are a good thing people!! I know you're out there!!!


Lisa said...

Nikki, you sound a lot like me except with 3 boys. My kids are older but I tend to stress all the time. I can't wait till school starts because I like the structured routine. We don't go back here until Aug. 22. I have a 17 yr.old (senior this year) with hormones that are about to drive me crazy. I am never right about anything and he knows it ALL. Thanks for letting me vent.....I'm with ya girl.

Love ya,

Sharon said...

Sounds like it is time to tell your brain to stop you are ready to get off.
Your brain sounds like mine.
I get started and I have a hard time getting it stopped.
But we have to remember that He already has it planned out. If we can just rest in His hands He will let us know the plans He has for us. And yes, you already know that those plans are GOOD!
So grab hold of that peace He left you and take a deep breath and be at peace.

Kim said...

It will all be worth it when you are in your own space - continue to let Kris take the lead. It affirms his role as leader in your home. Choose to enjoy doing projects with him - it will draw you two closer together.

Ruth said...

hi nikki! so glad to meet you. thank you for your comment. and oh -can i relate to the frazzled moments of life. i long for a slower pace...and somehow that season never arrives. :)

shalom to you. your girls are SOOOO sweet. :)

BrittLeigh said...

Hey Nikki! Thank you for your comment on my blog. That was so sweet! You have the most adorable little girls. They are so cute and precious!

And about all the stress in your life... sigh... :) I have in the span of 10 months stayed with my sister in the process of moving (selling, buying) TWICE. Not to mention she has these adorable little kiddos who are brimful of energy (whew... 3 kids ages 3 and under......). I think I know what your stress feels like... (((HUGS))) :) I hope you can keep your sanity and find those special little moments amid boxes and packing paper to sit at the feet of Jesus.

Blessings to you!