Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Many MANY thoughts this morning

Last night I put the girl's all to bed and I went outside and really started digging through Titus. It's not a very long book of the bible but there is just so much great stuff there. But, I had to stop because I guess you could say I was going under attack from the enemy. I started praying and tears started flowing from my eyes...........I have never been at a point in my life where God has said, "No" to so many things. I don't know if either I'm the verge of a huge breakthrough with my walk with Christ or that I'm still in some kind of disobedience with Him. And I really have tried and tried to figure this out......I just don't know what the answer is today.

It's VERY hard to explain and I don't really know that I want to go all into it today. I guess I could relate to Job a smidge.......BUT not nearly as drastic as everything he went through, I mean my stuff is so minor compared to what Job went through.....but I feel that depth, that pit in my soul, like, "Lord, what are you up to right now? What have I done?" My heart just feels sad today.........I mean I'm always joyful in Christ, but I guess I'm just trying to press on but it's getting very difficult. But I will! Oh I will press on!

Well, this is a short one today, I've got a lot going on today. Praying for you sweet friends, thank you all for your super sweet comments and encouraging words.....they just bless my soul away!Have a great day and a FUN 4th of July!!

Walking by faith and never by sight,


Tirana Tirani said...

hello there. you have cute girls :D

Leigh Gray said...

hey girl - praying for your peace today!!

So what is the latest with the house??? when do you close and all?

have a better day!

Lisa said...

Nicki, sometimes God wants us to come to him broken. It's the low times in our life when he can show his great works. Hang in there girl. He may be late to you in showing up but he will be right on time.

Love ya girl,

Sharon said...

I hear you.
I had been going through a time myself.
I am coming out. Keep moving. A little tenderness in our spirits are not always a bad thing.
I am praying for you.
He will keep him in perfect peace who's mind is stayed on Him.
Come to me all ye who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest.
Cast all your cares on Him for He cares for you.
When patience has its perfect work you WILL be complete and whole.

Sharon said...

Just checking in to see how you are doing. I hope this blog land silence is just because you are busy and getting ready for your trip.
Pray you hear the whispers of Gods love in your ear.