Thursday, January 22, 2009

One grumpy morning

One grumpy morning starts off with a terrific three year old tapping you on the shoulder in the wee hours of the morning whispering sweet nothings into your ear that said, "Where is Ho Ho?".......4 weeks after Christmas.

One grumpy morning continues as you walk into the kitchen only to find that the dish fairy didn't do "his" job last night and instead called out sick due to a brand new episode of "Lost". Ahem.

One grumpy morning leads into a battle of the clothes, hair and how long to brush teeth between girly#1 and a tired momma.

One grumpy morning gets worse when you realize you forgot to send in field trip money, to rearrange your schedule to be at a chapel this morning and oh ya......did I mention I was grumpy??

One grumpy morning leads to tears as a sweet girly with a fractured jaw, begins to walk out the door and stops long enough to realize that she knows you just need a hug. She wraps her cold jacket arms around you and whispers, "I love you Mommy."

And the grumpiness seems to melt as quickly as the snow on the ground did yesterday through the sunshine.

Oh how I hate mornings like this. And they are almost always on Thursdays, after we've been at church late, no one's clothes were laid out and the weeks just starts to sweep over us!

I have to be honest for a second......the majority of my grumpiness comes from a great disappointment I have faced this week. Shallow as this may sound....hear this girl's heart out.

On Friday of last week, we got a call from our old realtor. We had taken the house off the market since it just was not looking good for us. He was calling to tell us something incredible. Someone had wanted to see our house when it was on the market but had to go out of town on an emergency and when they returned, our house was off. They were calling to find out what was going on.

He then asked if we would be willing to show them the house and my heart ached for a moment.

And I almost said, "No", but then I thought......."Wouldn't this be just like God to show up in this moment and do this big thing?"

So I believed, I walked in faith and cleaned my house like never before!

I baked cookies, cleaned windows, the whole deal!!

They came, They saw, They loved it!

And so, it's been almost a week now.......and we've heard nothing.

Disappointed wouldn't even begin to describe how my heart feels right now. With this new undertaking of home school next year, my heart has ached for our house to sell.

For several reasons.

Not so that we can move to some gigantic house, but just something with a little more space (and not so many problems) and a more kid-friendly neighborhood.

And I think this morning, I'm just overwhelmed with it all. I love my little house (when things don't break) but I do miss our old neighborhood where friends were the constant for the girls and I.

I know there are many other bigger problems in this world. I get that. I get that I need and am grateful for the house we have.

Now, I'm sure you're wondering why I decided to write all this out?

Because I think that we all are dealing with disappointments right now. Whether it's something huge like a husband or wife serving in Iraq or a job loss, a home loss or a death or sickness.....or a marriage falling apart, bills piling up, fears overwhelming us.........or even just daily disappointments......I still believe that the Lord wants us to bring it to Him!

This morning my God Calling's title was "Grey Days". How appropriate!! And I want to leave you encouraged with this quote from the reading for today:

"Never forget your "Thank You." Do you not see it as a lesson? You must say "Thank You" on the greyest days. You must do it. All cannot be light unless you do. There is a grey-day practice. It is absolutely necessary."


I say "Thank you".

Thank you for this one grumpy morning that has lead me to see where my grumpiness is coming from today. Forgive me God, for I fail at this every single day. Thank you for the hard times and thank you for the good times. Thank you for the victories and Thank you for the failures. Thank you for being my God, who let's me start over, every single minute.

Lord, Don't LET me take one more step today without you,


On Purpose said...

Praying that He makes your grey all white today!

Ginger said...

Hoping that you'll soon have sunnier days.
Ginger :)

Sharon Brumfield said...

We have been having some grey days around here too. Not sure what is going on....talked to a friend about it this morning.

One of the things I did talk about was the fact that the Holy Spirit is supposed to be here as my comforter.
I talked to Him about that last night. Comfort for a spirit that was not at rest, comfort for a mind that does not cease its restless wandering. And comfort for a body that wants what it does not need it best health.

And you know what....comfort came. Not for long...but for long enough. And I will keep calling on Him to do His job....and He promises to come.

Just call Him girl.

Kay Martin said...

Yes there are disappointments for all of us and we need to be honest that all is not well. As I read through your disappointments (and I remember those toddler years in my own home) I realize if we get "real" we will hear ourselves and Holy Spirit brings us to His reality.

Being real, yet thankful, in all things is the way to live the great life Christians are promised.

Thanks for being real and showing your gratitude for the main thing. May we all realize unattended disappointments nest in our minds and steal our goodness.

Jennifer said...

Hey...hoping that your Friday is going better than Thursday! And that you will have a sunny weekend as well!

Marilyn in Mississippi said...

So sweet for you to let us see inside one of your "grumpy" days! We all have them! Only I don't know if I would be brave enough to post one of mine on my blog! No one might ever come back to visit! ha When I'm grumpy, I'm REALLY grumpy! ha

Did you ever see signs or door mats that say..."I didn't wake up grumpy this morning...I let him sleep!" ha

Hope tomorrow is a better day for you.

God bless,

Shari Braendel said...

Hi Nicki! Can you call me today? I don't have your number...mine is 704 605-3421.....I'd like to go this week if there's still an opening for me! Love, Shari

Pastor Lisa said...

Oh thank you for this post. I was in prayer and Holy Spirit showed me that I was just like that woman who's been in labor for a long time and finally yells, "just get it out...get it out!"

As bad as I hurt, as bad as I want the ordeal to be over...God sweetly asks do you have the strength for just one more push?

I say God I can't handle another disappointment, I can't go through this again. I'm tired. I've been in labor forever.

But you know in your heart of hearts you've got to push. You've come this far, there's no turning back.

You collect yourself, gather your strength, take a deep breath and push.

Push Nicki!

I'll be your doulah and you can be mine!

Love you.