Friday, February 01, 2008

So I'll wait

"I will wait for Lord, my soul waits; and in his word, I put my hope." Psalm 130:5

This verse is like water to my soul this morning......in fact I will be sticking on a sticky note and toting it around with me all day. Lessons are being learned in my life today......hard lessons. You will never hear me say, "I've got this one figured out" because I never do!!! I have truly, TRULY, seen what it means to "wait upon the Lord" the past week. Stress has overcome me....I have all the classic signs........a messy house, a tired soul, poor eating habits (chocolate is so messed up!!!) and yet still a peace........there is so much peace in waiting up the Lord.

I told you all a few days ago that there are some big decisions to be made and God has not revealed those answers yet........Oh sweet Lord, it's the 11th hour........and you are once again proving to me you are never early!!! You are ALWAYS right on time......I tell EVERYONE, My God to me is always the 11th hour God.......the last day, the last hour, the last moment.....He steps down. I feel like He smiles at me as I write that. My friend and I laughed about it yesterday as we talked on the phone......it's kinda like our joke with the Lord!!!

"In His word.......I put my hope". I know my God is so bigger than anything that "stresses" me out. I know situations could be much worse..........and I know God is here, He is definately showing up! Yesterday, I was at work and a co-worker of mine did something pretty ugly to me.......and I was ready to jump on my high horse and tell her in an OH SO LOVING way =) that what she did was innapropriate. But as I was standing there, I was reminded of a verse a friend had just e-mailed me the day before with a situation SHE is going through. "Vengence is mine sayeth the Lord."..........so I quoted that verse in my mind......and ya'll.........WHOOO WEEE did God show up!!!! I didn't have to say A WORD, I didn't have to DO ANYTHING.........and God DEFINATELY stepped down!!! I found it amazing that through a struggle my sweet friend is going through, I was able to get a blessing out of something she was telling me about her!!! =) Had I not just been reminded of that verse....my tounge probably would've gotten the best of me!!!

So this verse is just so appropriate for my day today........yesterday I did put all of my hope in HIS scripture...........and today, I will continue to wait upon Him to show Kris and I what to do with some big decisions we are making. Although it truly is the 11th hour........I know He is here. He's just waiting on me to say Lord, "My soul will wait". I really just want to put a sign on my forehead saying that......."MY SOUL WILL WAIT".........but I think people might REALLY think I've lost it!!! So instead I will put it on a sticky note and every time I start to get stressed out thinking about the unknown........I will remind myself that He is here.......He is in all the details......I just can't know all the details right now.

Well, I hope you have a blessed day and a super weekend!!!! Thank you ALL so much for your encouragement from my last post, the She Speaks conference. There are some AMAZING women applying for this scholarship!!! WOW!!! I've read quite a few entries and ya'll.......it's just such a blessing to see how God is working in each of our lives........He truly is!!!!! Just reading all that alone was a huge blessing for me! I took so much from all these blogs and godly women!! PRAISE HIM!!!

ps- spell check isn't working today on blogger.....so forgive me, I am a BAD speller!!

8 comments:

Sharon said...

I am not posting any more till I get back but I thought you would like this. It really spoke to my heart.
And since I lost your email I am going to try and paste it into the comments.
It is going to be long so feel free to delete it.

Manifest vs. Market
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2, by Os Hillman
02-01-2008

"Take the staff, and you and your brother Aaron gather the assembly together. Speak to that rock before their eyes and it will pour out its water" (Num 20:7-8).

The Bible says that Moses had a unique walk with God. God said Moses was the most humble man on earth and He spoke with him face to face (Num 12:3 and Exodus 3:11).

When Moses met God at the burning bush God said, "Moses, I'm going to perform miracles through your staff." And He did. He turned his staff into a snake. He brought plagues upon the nation and even parted the Red Sea with his staff. He even struck the rock with his staff to bring forth water.

But later, God called Moses to operate on a new level. Instead of using his workplace tool (his staff) to perform miracles, God was calling Moses to manifest the miracle through his words. "Speak to the rock Moses!" But Moses, frustrated by the stiff-necked people, struck the rock instead out of anger. Amazingly and in spite of his disobedience, God still allowed Moses to get water out of the rock. God will often work through your anointing, even when you do it in your flesh, just for the sake of others. But beware my friend, it will be at a great cost. Like Moses, you will not enter your promised land and may lose your inheritance.

God is calling us to manifest breakthroughs by operating at times as God did?by speaking to the problem. Be available to the Holy Spirit at times when God calls you to use your authority in your calling to manifest His power in a situation that needs a breakthrough.

Friend, God is calling you to manifest His Kingdom through a higher level of relationship with Him. Are you willing?

nanatrish said...

Nicki, I read your contest entry yesterday, but didn't have a chance to respond. It was so so good! I pick you as the winner. You have a wonderful testimony and you are inspiring to me. You are getting ready for something big and the Lord hears your prayers. Know that I am praying for you and continue to pray for me. You really have a talent for writing and your family should be so proud of you. Love ya, Trish

Nicki said...

Sharon.......wow, I needed to read that. It hit me RIGHT in the heart. Amazing....how I just wrote about this a few weeks ago....Miracles in the midst of disobedience.....but at a cost. Thank you for being obedient and sending this to me!!

Hi Trish! Thanks for your encouraging words again, you really have been a blessing to me through this blog!! I hope all is well for you this week!

Valarie said...

Hey girl. I'm so glad to be back in bloggyville! Everytime you write about God being an "11th hour" God to you a song we did with children's choir pops into my mind. I'll give you the lyrics now and next time I see you I'll teach you the tune.

"He's got the might, He's got the power, God can work in the 11th hour!" It was a musical about Esther!!

Love ya girl.
V

freetofly said...

Nicki,

I just have to say, your zeal, sunshine & enthusiasm are such a blessing! I really appreciate the ways God just "lights you up".

Stay near to Him, at His feet! Keep your eyes on Him! So that your springs will stay pure...I don't know why, but that keeps being on my heart to say to you, you can not publish this if you want, no worries!

God bless you & your husband with favor, wisdom and all that you need!
Maria

Pastor Lisa said...

The old folk used to say that God is the slowest person who's always on time.

He comes through and He does answer.

You're in my heart and prayers.

Nicki said...

Valarie.....girl you are cracking me up!! I totally need to know that song!!

Maria....sweet thoughts my friend, and no I needed to totally read that because today....I have been everywhere BUT the throne....I'm headed there now. Thank you.

Pastor Lisa......you just ROCKED my world with that saying!!! I got the BIGGEST kick out of that!! I have NEVER heard that before but it is my new thing!! God is the slowest person always on time....I LOVE IT!!! =)

LeAnne said...

I love your blog! I subscribe to it; its neat bringing the update to my email. Anyway, I needed this this morning because I'm getting a teenybit ansy about my situation. I've got a toddler and a newborn that I want to be home with, but moneys so tight and my hubby is nervous about me not working outside the home because of insurance. Daycare is too high (I dont want them in there anyway) and the grandparents are in their 70s and not in the best of health. Waiting on God to provide a better job for my hubby or a work at home solution for me is what I need alot of prayer for. Do I just step out on faith now and believe God will provide or do I stick with the job that He provided me 15 yrs ago? I'm at a standstill.

But like you, I guess I have to wait.